Sorry to myself

"For hearing all my doubts so selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly.
For helping you, and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and over functioning.

To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.

For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
For my self love being so embarrassingly conditional.
And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
And for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball.

And to whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.

I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.

For blaming myself for your unhappiness
And for my impatience when I was perfect where I was.
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready,
And expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be.

To whom do I owe the first apology?
No one's been crueller than I've been to me.

And I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.

Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter,
I would've naturally loved the former.

For ignoring you: my highest voices.
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious.
For being so disassociated from my body,
And for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.

To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me.

And I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else."

Composição: Alanis Morissette

Simple together

"You've been my golden best friend
And now with post - demise at hand
I can't go to you for consolation
Cause we're off limits during this transition

This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And I can't stop bumping into things

I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken

You've been my soulmate and than some
I remembered you the moment I met you
With you I knew God's face was handsome
With you I saw fun and expansion

This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And I can't stop dropping everything

I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But I was sadly mistaken

If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared
If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented
If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe

I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous together
But I was sadly mistaken

Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together
But I was sadly mistaken"

Alanis Morissette

Not as we...

"Reborn and shivering

Spat out on new terrain

Unsure unconvincing

This faint and shaky hour

Day one day one

start over again

Step one step one

I'm barely making sense for now

I'm faking it I'm pseudo making it

From scratch begin again but this time I as I

And not as we

Gun shy and quivering

Timid without a hand

Feign brave with steel intent

little and hardly here

Day one day one

start over again

Step one step one

I'm barely making sense for now

I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it

From scratch begin again but this time I as I

And not as we

Eyes wet toward

Wide open frayed

If god's taking bets

I pray He wants to lose

Day one day one

start over again

Step one step one

I'm barely making sense for now

I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it

From scratch begin again but this time I as I

And not as we"